#i feel like it's overly sad

[thejhambs]

Things I think about

The fact that one of Dan's first bullies invited him to a sleepover and then asked him, "who's going to be the boy, and who's going to be the girl"

The fact that Dan said "stuff happened" between him and guys who bullied him

The fact that Dan doesn't think straight men really exist, bc they hit on him if they're drunk and emotional enough

the fact that Phil is, one of, if not the first openly gay men he met in his life

[incorrect-upon-a-witchlight]

Frost: Name something you believed in as a child that you no longer do as an adult.

Torbek: Himself.

[skitskatdacat63]

"From triumph to failure is but one step."

+ the usual

I love when I can include paper sketches in the process gif. It's very satisfying to see it progress from a very vague imagining of what was in my head to the finished project.

+ version without text

My favorite sketch was definitely the one where I actually put in words what it's supposed to convey. I wouldn't usually write that down, cause it's all in my head, but it was useful to do so when sending it to other people. I'll go into it more but here it is just as a teaser:

Lmao first of all, I like how I was teasing "Spanish GP" art, but as per usual, it's just thinly veiled au art. IM SORRY, I'M NOT INTERESTED IN MAKING GENERAL POSTERS, THAT'S NO FUN! So instead you will get weirdly relevant matador au art. I like it a lot though, I was really shocked I was able to draw 3 different Fernandos, I mean even drawing one figure takes a lot out of me, but this was weirdly easy?? I think it's just the effect of not being burnt out anymore, and actually being able to draw with more ease makes me feel like a god.

Okay, so the text: "Fight or Flight?" I'll be honest, I don't even remember why I chose it, literally came to me in a vision 😭 But I think it's fitting with the narrative of this piece. Is it better to keep going on, keep fighting, or better to finally give up, and flee? Not that I even remotely think he should give up, but I feel like sometimes I can sense him pondering this very question. That was the big fear before he announced that he re-signed. Keep fighting and maybe, just maybe, you'll get the chance to finally go up against the bull again. Or accept it's an uphill battle and the fighting is going to keep getting more and more strenous, and maybe it's time to put down the sword. SORRY THIS IS SO ANGSTY FOR WHAT'S SUPPOSED TO BE "yayyyy home race!!!" Please forgive me <3

I. Renault

At some point, someone pointed out to me that I had drawn all other iterations of matador Fernando with a sword, except for Renault Fernando, and that ended up feeling very poignant to me. In a bull fighting match, they really only pull out the sword at the last minute to deliver the killing blow. So I think it's important to never draw this Fernando with a sword, because it shows the unfailing confidence and stability he has at that point. He only needs to pull out the sword at the end, as a formality almost, there's no reason for him to keep his guard up at all times.

II. Ferrari

Meanwhile this Fernando, he's considering his sword like he hasn't had to in the past. He's checking the sharpness, making sure in advance he can do what needs to be done. He's on guard, he feels like he needs to keep up his defenses at all times because he doesn't have that same amount of trust and stability anymore. He knows though he will be up against the (red) bull, at least that's never in question. At least there's the assurance he'll get the chance to fight.

III. Aston

Oh, Aston Fernando....He doesn't know whether to take up his sword or finally put it down for the last time. While at least Ferrari Fernando knows he's on constant guard against the bull, this Fernando doesn't even have that assurance anymore. He feels like he can never put down the sword, just in case he gets the chance to strike the killing blow on the bull, which feels like it's growing more and more unlikely.

Spanish flag: ? Lmao this was meant to be something to celebrate Fernando's home race and it turned very introspective whoops. Also got the Napoleon quote in there hahaha, can't escape it!! Shame though there is no French gp anymore, if so I'd probably draw an unhinged thing for it :,(

[moe-broey]

Conflict test..? Moe fucks up Badly test.

[forestgreenlesbian]

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[tyrianlynch]

I didn’t post anything about Adam Parrish’s bday today and now I’m mourning my own youth :(

[galedekarios]

im insanely thankful to you for writing the larian critical posts. i love the game to PIECES but when my friend tells me about the ast*rion scenes and lines and everything and we compare it to what gale has its just... sad. and i appreciate you pointing this stuff out. helps take the rose colored glasses off i guess. all that said, thank you SO SO much for your meta posts theyre SUCH a joy to read <3

thank you so much for your message. it means a lot to me. 🖤

[anthromimicry]

... do i dare say this is misao whenever she tries to get herself amped up for actually opening up to people JSJSJ

[shalpilot]

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[lonelier-version-of-you]

Henrik Hanssen and Karol Nowak in S15E04 "If Not For You"

[phregnancy]

Hoping your day gets better and sending you good vibes 💕🫶

thank you ♥️♥️♥️

[thetimelordbatgirl]

Bruh, there's hating Wish 2023 and then there's straight up trying to call Chip 'N' Dale: Rescue Rangers a better 100 years movie for Disney then Wish 2023, because holy shit, imagine saying a movie that disrespected a dead actor that Disney themselves screwed over and basically was a glorified show off of all the IP's Disney owns while also just straight up being an insult to its own medium, is better then an animated movie that you don't like and should represent Disney's 100 years as a company. ...Actually you know what, given I just mentioned Disney screwed over an actor whose now dead and then proceeded to disrespect him via a character in the film, maybe its a great representation of them as a company: mistreating people who worked for them even until to this day and even after they dead.

[x-crowmancer-x]

Oh god they're gone they're actually gone

Q!Philza is gone

Chayanne and Tallulah are gone.

I'm glad they're together but they're still gone

:(

Everyone is gone. All the eggs.. the sweet little guys are.. just not there anymore. I feel like this is the end. It's all ending and crumbling and it's so sad because I still care so much. Theyve been such a comfort family to me and I know it isnt real, they're characters played by people acting. But for 4-5 hours every VOD I got to be in the POV of a family that really love each other. They were silly and listened to each other and gave up a lot for eachother. They would do anything to keep eachother safe, our brave little warriors with Technoblade watching over them. And then that happy little family got a happily ever after together into the unknown.

But I'm still here.

It's not any of their faults, it's no ones fault at all. I'm always sad when people have to leave, I fear they're also leaving me behind too. And when they say they'll be back I wait for them. I wait and wait and grow so so tired of waiting for something, but nothing. (Tallulah just like me fr damn) Then I meet other people and I'm so sure this time they wont have to go.

I hope they think to take me with them if they do, like Chayanne and Tallulah.

[tibtew]

*sigh* something something the two-dimensionality of saeru's characterisation is a writing flaw, not a feature, and trying to pass it off as a feature whilst berating anyone who sees it as a flaw is uh. A Choice